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Author:	Just Jeff [ Wed Jan 04, 2017 10:20 am ]
Blog Subject:	Wed 4 January
Wed 4 January 3 weeks, 4 days sober. RR 100% God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. .................... Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace! That where there is hatred, I may bring love. That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness. That where there is discord, I may bring harmony. That where there is error, I may bring truth. That where there is doubt, I may bring faith. That where there is despair, I may bring hope. That where there are shadows, I may bring light. That where there is sadness, I may bring joy. Lord, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted. Seek to understand, rather than to be understood. Seek to love, rather than to be loved. For it is by self-forgetting that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven. It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life. …………………………… I think from now on I will always set an alarm to get up in the morning, even on days where I do not have a specific thing to get up for. I'm finding that when I don't and I have a lie in/snooze in the morning it leads to ruminating and analyzing thoughts and often negative/resentment type thinking first thing in the morning when I'm lying in bed. I think it's better to have that clean break from sleep to getting stuck into the day. Went to a 12 step meeting yesterday so want to continue my plan of going to a meeting 4 days in a row by going to a meeting today as well.

Author:	Just Jeff [ Tue Jan 03, 2017 9:54 am ]
Blog Subject:	Tuesday 3 January
Tuesday 3 January 3 weeks, 3 days sober. RR 100% God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. ............. Yesterday evening I had a few times where my mind was ruminating and analysing things more than I would have liked to. Also when I woke up this morning I had some brief sexual fantasy thoughts, they just popped in there and I think I handled them as well as I could have. Something for me to be aware of. Based on all this and how far my last 2 relapses occurred into a period of sobriety, this next 5-10 days could be a really testing time in terms of me staying sober so I'm planning to really step up the meetings over the next week. Planning to go to a 12 step meeting a day for the next 4 days.

Author:	Just Jeff [ Mon Jan 02, 2017 10:36 am ]
Blog Subject:	Monday 2 January
Monday 2 January 3 weeks, 2 days sober RR 100% God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. ............ I wrote my own step 3 prayer yesterday and want to type it out here again today: God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking. I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if I can only quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations. ......... I think for me when I first wake up can be one of the harder parts of the day because that's when I have a lot of noise in my head/thinking. It is gradually improving though and I think when I have something definite to get up to go out for in the morning that probably helps focus me. Like today I had no plans for the morning apart from having a lie in so maybe that invited more noise on and made it harder to get out of bed. Also wanted to share that this 3 weeks and 2 day sobriety has been complete sobriety from all sexual activity A proper withdrawal phase. I want to keep this up - I can be completely happy whilst refraining from all sexual activity and not even thinking about engaging in the latter. Just like the alcoholic who works a good programme can be happy without ever drinking a drop of alcohol again.

Author:	Just Jeff [ Sun Jan 01, 2017 9:10 am ]
Blog Subject:	Sunday 1 January 2017
Sunday 1 January 2017 3 weeks, 1 day sober RR 100% God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. ...... Today, I give the world 5 free passes in advance to do things that annoy me! Today, whenever I am feeling emotionally disturbed by a negative emotion such as anger or resentment I will focus on the feeling rather than the specifics of who or what is causing it and discharge these feelings as they occur. ....... Happy new year everyone! I hope it is a happy and sober year for everyone. Feeling quite good this morning. Working the 12 step programme is definitely getting positive results.

Author:	Just Jeff [ Sat Dec 31, 2016 8:47 am ]
Blog Subject:	Saturday 31 December
Saturday 31 December 21 days sober (3 weeks) RR 100% God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can. And the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. Feeling in a neutral kind of a mood this morning as I wake up, so not particularly happy or sad. Going to a meeting today, also keen to keep my stepwork moving and by that I mean actively working them. Also have some stuff on my to do list to do. Hope everyone has a good last day of 2016! Jeff.

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